It takes me 3 hours a day to commute to work. Time that I spend walking, in the underground and in the company's shuttle bus that travels the 60km distance gap between Barcelona's city center and the office. Not bad, eh ;-) I've been working here for the past 2 months and I've experienced the typical commuter crazyness: at first I thought it wouldn't be that bad, that it was easy to complain but you could actually use this time doing useful things like reading, thinking or listening to music. Then I started dreading it. Such a complete waste of time, when everyone knows time is precious!! But I also realized it was not only me: tons of people spend hours commuting to work, at least I'm not driving my own car and I can comfortably relax and enjoy the ride while I whatsapp with my friends, read the newspaper or watch TED videos...
But I missed the city vibes terribly. This last year has been a bit of a turmoil for me: I left Barcelona for Madrid, where I worked for 8 months - living in a hotel on weekdays and flying to Barcelona each weekend to be with my family and friends. Then I realized I couldn't stand it anymore and I had to choose whether I wanted to live in Barcelona or Madrid. And I chose Barcelona. Found a job in the fashion industry, working for one of the biggest retail companies in the world, and happily came back.
And then something weird happened. It was suposed to be a joyful new stage in my life. I was so excited and kept giving thanks everyday for having this great opportunity. I wanted to like the job so badly.
But things did not click. It was not what I had expected. And if you are honest to yourself this is something you instantly realize. Of course we should give things a chance (not only work related but also in our personal relationships, this would be another thing to discuss some day...) but I believe we should be true to ourselves and never settle if we feel it's not enough.
And that's what I did. The minute I realized I didn't love this job and I wasn't happy I knew I had to move forward. "Shoot for the moon, even if you miss you'll land among the stars" is my mantra :)
So today is my last Monday working for this company. I will always be grateful for the opportunity I was given, but my heart was not in it and I couldn't force it. The sooner you realize what you really want, the better - because it means you can start working on it!!
I'll tell you about my new job soon. Of course I have a very good feeling about it and I won't let this past experience overshadow my excitement, but at the same time I want to take things slowly :)
Today I used my commuting time writing this post. I hadn't blogged for a long time and I realized I terribly missed it! I'm sorry for writing this long ... I felt I needed to come clean and get it out of my chest!!
What about you? Does it take you a long time to get to the office as well? Have you ever considered quitting your job? Do you ever feel you are not doing what you love?
Have a wonderful day everyone!!! Talk to you soon ;-)
|this is me during my commute ride to the office|
|I love this print from the amazing The Every Girl website|